the_peej
03 March 2009 @ 10:29 pm
So, hi. 6-ish weeks since my last post. What could that mean? Am I tired of LJ? No, but the amount of Russians that I get adding me to their friends list is a bit disconcerting, I just haven't had anything to add.

So what's the good word? Busy. Peaceful. Happy.

I really don't know what to say. Work continues to go well. I have kick ass friends and a kick ass manager that make even the most difficult days, easy. I stomp forward towards my goal for the year, which is to get an exceeds on my review next year. I have lost some patience for those that would try and get the way of that, but I have told myself I will just roll right over them and not let them stand in my way.

Friendship goes well now that my Family is seemingly....whole again, minus those that have decided to move across country. All things for the best, especially for them, not to mention it gives me the excuse to go and visit Texas for the first time. Another member had more than a bit of a health scare, but it seems that has gone for the best. That makes Mr. Patrick quite happy.

Can one really ask for anything more than happiness and peace in one's life? Okay, all that and good beer bought for one by one's wife. I don't think so and I have had all that and more recently. For someone as grumpy as I am, I honestly can't think of anything to complain about in life right now.
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the_peej
16 January 2009 @ 09:24 pm
Who am I? Why am I here? Where did my wife go?

Could it be that I haven't felt like writing anything? Maybe. Could it be that I have been too busy? Good bet. Could it be that I am saddened that my wife's LJ has gone, poof? Yes. Am I a sap? Have you met me?

This is the last week of pure joy at work. Why? It is the last week for 2 good friends before they go to Texas, where we are opening a new center. One of said friends has become very dear to me the last few months and it makes me sad that it took as long as it did to really get to know her. Such is life I suppose. I will miss my friend, but we will be in contact and on those days, at those times, I will be happy.

Hey, guess what? I am at peace with myself! I know, I know. Who am I and what have I done with the real Patrick.

I dunno, maybe it took 34.5 years but I am content, I am happy. I have learned to let the water flow around me, let it slide off of me and move on. Big steps my friends, big steps.

And I even have a goal for the year, beyond passing my damn test and getting my damn degree. What would that be, you ask? My goal is to bust my heiny and get exceeds on my year end review. No screwing around or screwing up. I am going to be the best, I am going to impress and if you get in my way I am going to roll over you.

Go. Team. Patrick.
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the_peej
08 December 2008 @ 09:20 pm
I've not written anything in a while because, frankly, there hasn't been a whole lot to say. Failed a test. Life goes on.

Work has been...hard. Many changes. People leaving. People I care deeply about. This fills me with a sadness that I don't quite understand. The next month or so is going to be a test of will and patience. Make it until the beginning of the year and we'll be okay.

Got my yearly review last Friday. I of course rock. Lots of good things said, only one thing negative. It was obvious in coming. Fair. I am okay with that. I meet expectations, but only in the eyes of the powers that be. I honestly think I exceed and that isn't something I would ever normally say about myself.

I feel guilty because my wife has apparently bought me something awesome for Christmas and blew the budget in doing so. Why guilty? Because I am poor. She is going to have a few really great gifts, but no big huge jaw dropper. Though I really do think she's going to love the first thing I got her.

So we will see what the next three weeks bring. Hopefully I come out of my funk, but I just don't know. Have faith though. Have faith.
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the_peej
10 November 2008 @ 05:33 pm
For as much as I have grown up, for as much as I have matured, for as smart as i truly am... I am no different now than I was 15 years ago.

My class?  I failed.  DIdn't look at anything but the grade.
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the_peej
09 November 2008 @ 07:13 pm
Could I be anymore disgusted?

Nope
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the_peej
26 October 2008 @ 04:52 pm
Test is, of course, done. How did I do? C'ish I think.

Find out sometime this week.
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the_peej
25 October 2008 @ 06:37 am
Pens?  Check.  Soda for drive?  Check.   Ipod?  Check.  Mala?  Check.  Crazed mind?  Check.

Why do I suddenly feel like one of the light brigade?
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the_peej
24 October 2008 @ 11:16 pm
In just under 10 hours I will take my test on Ancient Egypt and Mesopotamia.  Am I nervous?  Yes.  Scared?  Yes.  Have I prepared like I should have?  No, but that is the story of my life.  One's natural intellect can only take one so far, at some point studying must be done; in this case, there simply hasn't been enough of that.

So think of me tomorrow, say around 9am eastern.  If I am lucky I pass and then I can finally hang my degree on my wall.
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the_peej
09 October 2008 @ 03:44 pm
Why must my JPMC stock tease me so? Up all day and then in the last hour
of trading, SPLAT.
Two days in a row. Yesterday it was up over $2 before falling and today,
about a $1.25 and now down almost $2. What in the last hour is scaring
the pants off of investors?
 
 
the_peej
24 September 2008 @ 08:45 am
Three years ago today I married my angel. Its been three years most glorious.

I love you dearest Bink and that love grows daily.
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